God is Good! (T-2 days)

First off I'd like to start off my saying I don't claim to be a writer.  I am simply a girl who loves the lord going on an amazing trip who wants to share a little bit of what she learns.  What a share on my blog is not suposed to be an eloquant essay, it's just my thoughts.

So way back when a friend of mine first told me that the midwife in Guatemala was looking for someone to help her i had this overwhelming feeling that that job was for me .  And that I was going to do it.  [God is Good!] Those feelings didn't make sense to my human brain so I immediatly pushed them away.  Obviously as time went on I realized that I was going to do this job but I was constantly worried and doubting what on earth I am doing going to Guatemala alone!  These thoughts can be seen in my first bloog entry that I wrote in March!

Right at the height of my worry about Guatemala on April the 3rd the sermon at my church was about Job.  I am not going to go into detail about his whole story, you can look it up for yourself if you are interested. But in Job 38-41 God reminds Job who like me was doubting, that God knows what He is doing!  He basically says stuff like; "did you make the earth?  Have you ever brought the sun up in the morning ? Did you give horses their strength?  Do you command the animals? NO you don't! thats what I thought!  Its me who does that not you, So I know what I am doing! okay?"  Keep in mind these is a very loose translation.  My response:  Oh snap!  Job got told! Really I have no right to be saying, this trip doesn't make sense, or say oh this won't work cause God has got a handle on it.  [God is good] 

As I listened to this sermon I tried to trust in God, and the main thing I needed help trusting was that this trip and lack of employment this summer wouldn't make me go into debt later on.  I really prayed hard that even if I did go into dept that I would remember God still knows what he is doing.  Well God certainly did know what he was doing because less then a month after I said this prayer God provided every last cent I needed for my trip, my travel insurance and my vaccinatations through generous support! [God is good].  Many people from my church where I go to school, from my church at home, from my moms work, from my friends, and even people who I didn't know in the community, or friends of my parents generously gave towards this trip.  It further proved that it is God's will.

A friend of mine told me to read Philippians Chapter 4 when I am scared but I started off at chapter 1.  Verse 29 really stuck out to me.  "For you have been given not only the privilege of trusting in Christ but also the privilege of suffering for him. "  I know that this whole experience won't be rainbows and butterflys, I know that sometimes it's going to suck but at least I can be proud that the suffering I may endure will be because I am following God's will.  I keep thinking that of all the people God could have chosen for this trip He chose me, but not because I am awesome, but rather because He is awesome so because of that I can be proud to suffer in his name.  [God is good].
-Emma <3